March 31st: Moving Forward with Resolve

March 31

The end of my marriage was not easy for me.

But once I accepted that it was inevitable… I chose to move on with resolve.

I knew that no matter how much I loved my soon-to-be ex-husband that he no longer wanted to build a life with me and that forcing it… would not create the outcome I longed for.

Often it is hard to move on… hard to say out loud what I know to be true in my heart… hard to say something that may hurt someone I have loved, still love…

But I know now, that if both partners are unable to find a perfect fit together, at that particular time in their lives, it really is best to let go, no matter how difficult, and move forward with resolve to a new life… a new opportunity… one that may be exactly what I have been looking for.

Today, I choose to have faith on my path and move forward with true resolve.

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“Dear God, help me to have strength in my darkest hour. Help me to have clarity and faith as I choose to walk forward on my own.”

March 30th: Letting Go

March 30th-

When my marriage first ended it was very hard for me to “let go” of what my soon-to-be ex-husband was up to.

It was almost an addiction: letting my mind fantasize about how much better his world must be now that I wasn’t in it.

I let my own life play second fiddle as I obsessed in despair over “his world.”

It took a lot of spiritual footwork and a lot of time to recover my sense of sanity and let go of my despair and see what I was missing: my own life.

Today, I still sometimes find myself spinning over someone else’s existence… someone I am close to in a relationship.

But now…. after years of practice… I catch myself quite quickly and reel my mind back to the present moment before I go too far over the edge.

I have to fight to let go… which sounds so strange…. but it is very true…. I have to train my mind each day to think positive thoughts, stay in the moment, stay on my spiritual course and try not to worry about what others may or may not be up to…. and if I practice this exercise… then I find myself letting go…. and my serenity returning to soothe me.

“Dear God, please help me to let go when I find myself struggling to hold on. Let me be brave and let me be focused on my own world. Help me to “live and let live.”

March 29th: Delays

March 29th-Delays

Today I found myself waiting on others.

I had a big project due and my colleagues, were all delivering their work last minute: work I had to have to complete my assignment.

Even though I had contacted each person numerous times over the last several months… many of them chose to procrastinate until the very end.

Luckily, I learned something over the years that has helped me in the midst of just this type of last minute chaos: Accept that their will be delays and plan accordingly.

Having experienced delays with many of my colleagues before…. I made sure to give them a “final” deadline that was really a week ahead of my “own” true final deadline.

In that way, I was able to protect my sanity, give myself time to finish my project and review it calmly, before finalizing it and turning it in.

When I find myself in a situation where I must depend on someone that has proven at times to be unreliable, I must expect delays and set up parameters to take care of my own emotional, spiritual, and physical needs. No matter what type of relationship, professional or romantic… I must expect delays and create boundaries that keep me from chaos.

“Dear God, help me to find patience when all patience seems to have failed me.”

March 28th: Serenity

March 28th-Serenity

For me finding serenity is about changing perspective.

It seems that whenever I get my mind dead set on a specific outcome or a specific way of doing things…. I’m suddenly flustered and in an emotional uproar.

But the moment I note that something is not going as planned, and I acknowledge the problem and move past my frustration towards a creative solution… my mind calms and my serenity returns.

By surrendering myself, by keeping an open mind, by choosing to look at multiple solutions when things go awry… I allow serenity to enter and my spirit to find relief.

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“God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdow to know the difference.”

March 27th: Dedication

March 27th-Dedication

Being dedicated, or committed to a task or purpose is not always an easy thing.

It takes a lot of mental fortitude to see something through when it becomes difficult or tiring but for me…

When I do dedicate myself to a specific task, use my strong work ethic to see me through, there is a great satisfaction in my accomplishments.

If I stay in the moment, and work towards my goal one minute at a time instead of allowing myself to become overwhelmed by the overall task, I can achieve great things.

I cannot think of a time in my life that I was not proud of the time I spent on work that I was truly dedicated to…

Even my dedication to my marriage, though it did not turn out as I had hoped, moved me forward through my commitment to my relationship and gave me strength, when I was ready, to try again.

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“Dear God, thank you for standing beside me during difficult tasks. Help me to be dedicated to all I do, and accept the outcome of my actions knowing that I gave my best.”

March 26th: Being There for Others

March 26th-Being There For Others

This week is a very eventful week for me.

I have a looming deadline.

I have a public speaking engagement and…

I have a work commitment where I must be present for my students and their families.

I knew that I would need to take this week “one day at a time” maybe even “one hour at a time” if necessary just to make it through so…

When one of my good friends called me today, under stress and in need of reassurance, I wasn’t sure what I would have to offer him.

He was worried about his own work…

Stressed about his job…

Going over every detail again and again and hoping that nothing would go awry.

And after listening for just a few moments to his voice, I knew that I needed to put my own worries aside and support my friend.

Why?

My difficult week… my struggles were minor, they were in no way comparable, to what his worries entailed.

At his job… a critical mistake, could cost someone their life.

I listened to my friend and offered my support freely.

I was reminded today that no matter how overwhelmed I may be in my own world, others may be dealing with a task, a problem much more difficult than my own.

Being there for others reminds me of who I want to be in a relationship:

A compassionate friend.

An anchor when someone I love feels unmoored by life’s trials.

The voice of calm reason and assurance when my loved ones are in doubt.

The one with true perspective that can see when my own troubles need to be set aside to support a friend.

“Dear God, help me to have a higher perspective. When others need me, help me to offer my support, to set aside my own troubles, for the benefit of those I love.”

March 25th: Patience

March 25th-Patience

Today I found myself losing my patience.

I had a lot going on with my work and my high school students seemed particularly needy.

Each time I spoke sternly to them I would stop myself and say, “I’m not angry. I’m just really overwhelmed right now” and then I would stop what I was doing and calmly listen to their needs.

By the end of the day, I thought about how good I had been with my students.

I had explained to them that I was stressed, under pressure, and didn’t want to take it out on them…

When I was fearful that my voice might upset them or cause them to become hurt, I stopped my action and self-corrected.

I couldn’t help but be reminded that I must observe this type of patience in all of my daily dealings.

How many times had I not been this kind with adults sure that they should know better?

I’m not the only one under pressure in my day-to-day life.

I’m not the only one struggling with an excessive work load or intense family dynamics, or working to get through a difficult day.

I must exercise patience, show compassion, when dealing with all people, young and old, on days where I feel shaky on my spiritual path.

“Dear God, help me to be patient with everyone around me. Help me to have perspective and show compassion.”