It was hard to believe during my divorce that I would ever be happy again.
All of the joy in my world, all of my own spark, was diminished by the tragedy that was my failed marriage.
I did everything I could to try to distract myself from the sadness that clouded every waking moment of my life, but despite my best efforts to “act as if” and to “move on” I was miserable.
But we as human beings are adaptive.
And though I often thought I would not make it through… soon happiness began to pop up to surprise me in unexpected moments:
A small child waving at me from a distance.
A funny expression on my dog’s face.
An off-the-cuff comic remark from one of my friend’s determined to make me laugh once again.
Happiness came back to me in tiny increments… snapshots of joy that began to punctuate my life and soothe my soul.
Today, my life is filled with happiness.
I find it in my conversations with my loved ones.
In my daily lessons with my students.
In the words that I write.
In the music that I sing.
In the sure knowledge that I am exactly who I am today and where I am supposed to be… reminded through tragedy… that happiness is precious and should always be cherished.
“Dear God, thank you for bringing happiness to my life. Thank you for giving me so much to be grateful for in my world.”