One day, while we were still together, my husband came home with a present for me: it was a cedar God box.
He told me that whenever I had worries, whenever I needed to let something go, I could write down whatever was bothering me, write a letter to God, and put it in the box.
I could give my problems over to God.
I liked the idea so I put all sorts of things inside of the box:
A picture of my two children.
One of my husband’s cigarettes in hopes that he would quit.
Letters to God asking for guidance and help on certain issues.
Once they were tucked away in my God box, I would forget about them.
One day, I sat on the bed and opened the box and looked back over the things I had put inside.
I found that many of the problems I had turned over to God, had been removed from my life.
I liked my God box.
I liked having a special place to put my notes to God.
I realized it didn’t matter what type of box it was.
It could have been a shoe box, a paper bag; any type of container would do.
The point was to have a special place to give my worries over to God.
“Dear God, help me to give my worries to you. Once I turn them over, guide me to let them go. Taking back a worry will not help me. It will only cause me to fret over something that can only be handled by you.”
I find myself worrying about almost everything right now. Paperwork I need to discuss, checks lost in the mail, addresses and memberships to be changed and/or divided.
It’s as if each little item is a mountain to climb.
I think I’m still in the habit of feeling as I did before we resolved so many major events as we separated– like selling the house, and paying off bills.
I was buried in tasks that are now gone, but they feel as though they’re still present.
Not sure how to hand this feeling over, but it helped so much to read your post. Thank you
Let go of what you can… and I found GREAT satisfaction in lists… sounds silly… but crossing something off and completing it… even something as simple as “making the bed” gave me a sense of control and accomplishment while I worked my way through my strange and new world! 🙂 D.
I’ve made a few attempts to make lists but haven’t been breaking things down far enough. It will feel good to see something accomplished each day! Thank you
It seems silly but I swear it really helped me just seeing ANYTHING crossed off! I had it all the way broken down… I’m here Patricia! Just keep moving forward. You will get there. 🙂 D.
I love tucking away those things that I need to “hand over” at times.
Letting go has been one of the hardest hills to climb – and that “box” has helped so much.
OMG!!! I am smiling this morning!!! 🙂 🙂 Thank you for speaking on this yesterday and posting it today. I MUST get me a God Box immediately!!! 🙂 🙂 I am sure it will help quiet the worrisome, chattering monkeys in my head.
I’m so glad! 😀