I hated that everything my husband was doing was beyond reason.
Why would he leave his family?
How could he live with seeing us only a few times a week?
What was so important to him that he would walk away from everything we had built: our history, our world… to look for something else?
One day, a good friend said, “It is beyond reason. No one can explain why people do the things they do.”
It was true.
I could question all I wanted.
I could ask my husband why… but I still don’t think I would understand.
It was beyond reason.
I could drive myself crazy wondering why certain things happen.
I could spend every day wondering why this person lived… or this person died… why one family stayed together… why one family fell apart… but I wouldn’t find logic in the answers.
Sometimes… they just do.
Life is beyond reason.
Today, I know that I can spend endless emotional energy trying to figure out why and still not get to an answer.
It is beyond reason.
Now, what am I going to do with my life for today?
“Dear God, help me not to waste time trying to find reason where there is none. Help me to use my time to move on and move forward. Help me to accept that things in life sometimes… just happen. They are beyond my control. They are beyond my reason. I must have faith that you know the plan, you know the reason, and everything is happening just as it should.”