Today marks the fourth year of my daily divorce meditations and so, I pause to celebrate my accomplishment and assess my progress.
It is so easy to be hard on myself… to feel that I am still stumbling… still learning lessons I feel I should have already learned.
But, in this moment, I stop to be proud of all I have done to move forward in my spiritual process.
How different my life is today.
How happy I am today.
I would have never believed at the end of my marriage and the beginning of my divorce that I would ever find a way out of the pain and despair but I have done just that.
I have practiced so many important things that benefited my well-being this year, that in the past, I was never willing to do:
To admit that I was vulnerable and able to ask for help…
To thank others for being a part of my life…
For accepting multiple perspectives and learning to live-and-let-live…
For having courage and faith to make hard decisions…
And knowing that I am a work-in-progress and living life to the best of my ability each and every day.
It is never easy to accept a great loss and move on.
It is never easy to recover from heartbreak.
But time carried me through and taught me that I am stronger than I ever believed and that I can survive setbacks of the greatest magnitude.
“Dear God, thank you for giving me the strength to continue on. Thank you for guiding me out of pain and despair and into my new fulfilling life.”