I once heard that serenity wasn’t having “all of your ducks in a row” but having all of your ducks scattered and being okay with it.
Well, I don’t know much about ducks… but I do know that when my world is feeling scattered… when I feel that I don’t have a safe harbor… an anchor to cling to…. my serenity is in danger.
Sometimes… it just feels like a run of bad luck… like I can’t catch a break no matter how hard I try.
I think I’ve done the right thing.
I think I’ve chosen the right path and then suddenly…
something comes along and “scatters my ducks.”
It can be quite disheartening.
I have learned that during these times of chaos I must go back to the idea of “One day at a time” and really… down to “One minute or one second at a time” if necessary.
I have to focus myself on the tasks at hand:
Making my bed.
Getting ready for work.
Doing my job well.
Eating, resting, taking care of my health until my serenity returns.
If I allow myself to become enveloped in the chaos… I allow myself to become scattered in my mind, in my spiritual beliefs, in my actions and I lose all sense of perspective.
By taking it moment by moment, accepting that things are scattered for now but, will return to a since of normalcy in the future, I can keep moving forward on my path and learn to find serenity when all around me is chaotic.
“Dear God, help me to find serenity even when my world is full of chaos. Help me to find solace in my day-to-day routine as I struggle through these changes.”
So true! I’m one that needs some grounding or certainty whenever I can. I’m learning that through my divorce I’ve rid myself of undo chaos and feel excited about the new kind of uncertainty that comes with rebuilding one’s life.
Literally one day at a time and being more at peace with that feeling.
I know that when chaos and exhaustion return into my day that my life is not in order. Sometimes, things come up that are out of our control but for me… when each day is chaos and I’ve been care-taking to the point where I am exhausted, I have to step back and look at what I need to do to change things. 🙂 D