Yesterday, I woke up from a horrible dream.
One of my friends had been the key figure in it… and I immediately felt the need to contact him and warn him to be careful at work that day.
He wrote back, “I’m okay… glad that you care about me… I will be careful but remember… I’m in God’s hands.”
It reminded me that he was absolutely right.
I could do all of the footwork but the ultimate outcome was in my Higher Power’s hands.
I thought back to my divorce: how I worked to fix my marriage.
I did everything that my husband asked for and still the ultimate outcome was divorce.
Because it was in God’s hands.
While engulfed in the pain of that time period, I could not see that maybe leaving something in God’s hands was in my own best interest.
Always goal driven… I expected my footwork to produce the outcome I wanted: a saved marriage.
Today, I believe that I am exactly where I am supposed to be… I am learning exactly what I am supposed to learn… I am on my spiritual path and so I walk forward, willing to do the footwork, but leaving the rest in God’s hands.
“Dear God, help me to remember it is your will not my will. Help me to let go and leave the outcome in your hands.”