Yesterday, I woke up from a horrible dream.
One of my friends had been the key figure in it… and I immediately felt the need to contact him and warn him to be careful at work that day.
He wrote back, “I’m okay… glad that you care about me… I will be careful but remember… I’m in God’s hands.”
It reminded me that he was absolutely right.
I could do all of the footwork but the ultimate outcome was in my Higher Power’s hands.
I thought back to my divorce: how I worked to fix my marriage.
I did everything that my husband asked for and still the ultimate outcome was divorce.
Why?
Because it was in God’s hands.
While engulfed in the pain of that time period, I could not see that maybe leaving something in God’s hands was in my own best interest.
Always goal driven… I expected my footwork to produce the outcome I wanted: a saved marriage.
Today, I believe that I am exactly where I am supposed to be… I am learning exactly what I am supposed to learn… I am on my spiritual path and so I walk forward, willing to do the footwork, but leaving the rest in God’s hands.
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“Dear God, help me to remember it is your will not my will. Help me to let go and leave the outcome in your hands.”
Daily Divorce Meditations 
Thank you for this post… it’s a tough one for me today (I’m writing 11/16). Today would have been my wedding anniversary.
After not being with my ex for almost five months now, and the divorce being finalized last month, I am comfortable with where I am as a person now, but it still hurts so much.
I did the best I could.
When you said you believe you are exactly where you’re supposed to be, the best feeling I do have on this day, is that I too feel, and know, I’m where I’m supposed to be too.
And to be moving through the pain.
And to continue to feel, and realize, the freedom I have now.
Anniversaries are hard Patricia…. especially in the beginning. Do something nice for yourself today… something you really love… and know that I will be thinking of you. I have to play a show today but I will be home this evening if you need to write again…. D.
Thank you so much, D. I really appreciate your support.
Helps so much to know you’re out there, especially on days like this.
I did spend time with friends but felt more fatigued than usual. Emotions are so draining some times! But I know better days are ahead.