Over the course of the last several weeks I have been working very hard to make my own space, slow my life down, and get on with my spiritual footwork.
It hasn’t been easy… and I struggle each day with my task.
And as I was focused on my own path… someone very dear to me let me know that they also needed space.
It was funny how immediately I began to react to their request:
Why do you need space?
What did I do?
Why do you want to distance yourself from me?
It was so easy for me to see, when I needed space, that it was about my need to calm down and bring sanity back to my life.
But, as soon as someone I loved said the exact same words… it was so difficult for me to let go of my own self-esteem issues and give them what they needed.
Today, I must realize that my relationships with other people are not… “all about me.”
I must work towards being understanding, loving, kind, compassionate when someone I love asks for the same thing I ask for: time to create spiritual balance.
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“Dear God, help me accept another’s decision. Help me to be kind and compassionate and let ego go when someone I love needs space.”
I agree this is a hard one to gauge because I also tend to take others actions personally, and have to be careful to realize that’s not what’s going on 99% of the time.
In fact, there are times when I don’t know how to communicate that I need space too, without hurting someone’s feelings.
Coming through emotional turmoil from a divorce, my feelings and reactions still fluctuate a lot and I go to that place that “it’s probably about me”!