There are only so many times that I can ask for what I want before I must stop asking.
My divorce taught me that no matter how I may love someone… no matter how I may want to be with that person… if I keep asking for what I need and their answers or their actions continually express the word, “No…” I must come to terms with the relationship and decide if I can carry on with it.
How much am I willing to take?
How much am I willing to give?
Have I set up a relationship where I am constantly the nurturer? The giver? Allowing someone else to take from me at all costs?
If I am left wanting… spent… worn from sharing so much of myself… then where do I go from there?
I know now that I have to love myself enough to let go of what is no longer working for me and find a relationship where my love is valued and cherished, sought after by the person I choose to share my life with today, and that together, we will build a mutual loving relationship based on honesty and respect.
“Dear God, help me to let go of old behaviors. Help me to move forward in faith and know that my future holds a better life for me.”