No matter how much I love to be an individual… there is something inside of me that longs to belong with the people I love, admire, and respect.
But there are groups… groups that I have been a part of over the years… that have not always brought out my best self.
My shadow self emerges when I am with these people and the urge to belong drives me to act in ways that no longer suit the person I am today.
I find myself either full of ego, self-doubt, or struggling with my self-esteem and it still, to this day amazes me, that after all of my footwork in spiritual recovery… I can so easily fall back into my former ways with certain people.
These relationships are important to me. I am firmly connected to them through shared history, love, and family ties.
I want to belong with these groups… I just want to act as my stronger, higher, spiritual self when engaging with them.
If these relationships are relationships that I choose to continue… I must work to see what is driving me to “act out” and learn to take opposite action so that I can create healthy relationships and belong with a peaceful mind and heart.
“Dear God, help me to be my best self around all of the people I love and cherish. Help me to overcome my ego, and self-doubt, and move forward on my spiritual path.”
for Mary 10-8-35 to 11-5-17