When my marriage first ended it was very hard for me to “let go” of what my soon-to-be ex-husband was up to.
It was almost an addiction: letting my mind fantasize about how much better his world must be now that I wasn’t in it.
I let my own life play second fiddle as I obsessed in despair over “his world.”
It took a lot of spiritual footwork and a lot of time to recover my sense of sanity and let go of my despair and see what I was missing: my own life.
Today, I still sometimes find myself spinning over someone else’s existence… someone I am close to in a relationship.
But now…. after years of practice… I catch myself quite quickly and reel my mind back to the present moment before I go too far over the edge.
I have to fight to let go… which sounds so strange…. but it is very true…. I have to train my mind each day to think positive thoughts, stay in the moment, stay on my spiritual course and try not to worry about what others may or may not be up to…. and if I practice this exercise… then I find myself letting go…. and my serenity returning to soothe me.
“Dear God, please help me to let go when I find myself struggling to hold on. Let me be brave and let me be focused on my own world. Help me to “live and let live.”