For the last several weeks I have felt that I have wandered off my own spiritual path through actions I believe to be adverse to my spiritual growth.
And though I am trying my very best not to beat myself up regarding every mistake I have made along the way… I have caught myself involved in one of my least favorite defense mechanisms: projecting.
I have been projecting my undesirable thoughts and feelings onto a person that I truly love… and punishing this person for a crime they haven’t even committed… haven’t even considered committing… and probably never would.
It is the residue from my past.
The fear of being hurt once again by someone I love.
The story of my divorce carrying over into my new relationship.
When I project, I become a shadow version of the true me and drive a wedge between myself and those I love.
It is harmful skewing of my world.
Projection creates a false reality that becomes real in my own mind and leads me down a path of constant worry, anxiety, fear, and ultimately despair.
I have to step back and address my own issues so that I can return to a strong spiritual foundation and place my trust back where it belongs: in those I love.
“Dear God, help me to think before I act. Help me to overcome my anxiety and have faith in those around me.”