Last night I was thrown off by an unforeseen event.
Someone dear to me had an opinion regarding my actions, my behavior, that I felt was unwarranted.
I was very upset about the incident.
I thought about it my entire drive home and most of the morning.
I didn’t like that my friend’s opinion of me on this occasion was negative and I began to have feelings about it.
I truly felt that I had done nothing wrong… that I had acted this way in my friend’s presence on numerous occasions before… yet tonight, for whatever reason… they were uncomfortable with my behavior.
I of course wanted to discuss it with them, find a way to mend our quarrel but, I knew that I would also have to look within myself and be willing to reflect on why their opinion bothered me so.
Was it because they were my dear friend, and so their opinion really meant something to me due to our intimate friendship or…
Was it because they had pushed an emotional button… triggering something deep inside of me that caused me to feel vulnerable and attacked?
I cannot allow my self-worth to be contingent on another person’s opinions no matter how close or dear they are to me but…
if that opinion reveals a need for my own spiritual footwork and growth…. then maybe I need to step back and address any of my issues that I may still be struggling with today.
“Dear God, help me to hold my self-esteem intact. Help me to let opinions fall away, positive or negative, and walk my own path with a positive attitude.”