Sometimes I can be really hard on myself regarding the spiritual and emotional progress I am making in my day-to-day life.
Beating myself up each time I have a slip.
Letting my mind dwell on every conversation I had where I felt I said something unworthy or callous.
Re-thinking each and every step of my decisions and my plans, sure that I am constantly making the wrong choice.
It is easy to get wrapped up in a shame spiral, especially when I throw emotions, old wounds, and also new relationships into the mix.
I am amazed at how cruel I can be to myself at times: unwilling to forgive myself for my mistakes… unwilling to be kind when I have stumbled.
Wouldn’t I be loving and kind to others when they are struggling on their path?
Why am I so hard on myself?
Today, I am reminded that life and spiritual growth are about progress not perfection.
I am not perfect… I am flawed… as all people are. And if I find solace in the fact that we are all struggling on our paths, all working towards being better human beings… then maybe I can let go of my need to seem flawless and perfect and embrace the struggles that we all share.
“Dear God, help me to be kind to myself. Help me to find strength in my journey as I work towards eliminating my own character flaws through spiritual footwork and faith.”
The anguish of what you said yesterday is only good if you learn from it and let it go.
So true Thetis… isn’t that the hardest part? Letting it go? Always letting it go… in life… again and again… xo D.
I can’t believe the timing on these posts. I had a busy day, productive day, but enough time to have a “pity party” . Oh “he’s” having such an easy time of it all, and I’m working my *** off but my mind is still having time to discuss how I should be doing better, doing more, feeling happier. I just can’t whine to my friends about this stuff. I’d like to ask my mind to give me a break! 🙂 And all is far from perfection, but much better than I allow myself to believe at times…