When I was young, I did not believe in timing.
Timing to me was an excuse to get out of something.
Timing was a way to keep people at bay.
Timing meant that “I wasn’t really invested in the relationship.”
Whenever I heard the words, “I’m sorry. It’s just bad timing” I would emotionally shut down.
Today, I know that timing does play into relationships.
There are truly incidents of bad timing and I have to accept that this does not mean that someone loves me less, or is trying to slight me in anyway.
The truth is… no matter how much I may not like it… the world is not “all about me” and everyone in it does not operate on my specific time frame.
I myself have now said on numerous occasions to people I truly love and enjoy spending time with: “I can’t. I’m sorry. The timing is not working out for me.”
Our lives don’t always run in sync with each other.
I know that I must be patient and accept that if I am valued in a relationship, and if I truly value that person as well, there will come a time when we will be able to be together again.
“Dear God, help me to accept that life does not run on my time frame. Help me trust in my Higher Power’s time… and that when it is right, I will find a moment to connect with my loved one once again.”