When I was young, I did not believe in timing.
Timing to me was an excuse to get out of something.
Timing was a way to keep people at bay.
Timing meant that “I wasn’t really invested in the relationship.”
Whenever I heard the words, “I’m sorry. It’s just bad timing” I would emotionally shut down.
Today, I know that timing does play into relationships.
There are truly incidents of bad timing and I have to accept that this does not mean that someone loves me less, or is trying to slight me in anyway.
The truth is… no matter how much I may not like it… the world is not “all about me” and everyone in it does not operate on my specific time frame.
I myself have now said on numerous occasions to people I truly love and enjoy spending time with: “I can’t. I’m sorry. The timing is not working out for me.”
Our lives don’t always run in sync with each other.
I know that I must be patient and accept that if I am valued in a relationship, and if I truly value that person as well, there will come a time when we will be able to be together again.
“Dear God, help me to accept that life does not run on my time frame. Help me trust in my Higher Power’s time… and that when it is right, I will find a moment to connect with my loved one once again.”
When I look at the past year, “timing” was the key to the negative revelations , and the positive outcomes.
It was early last year that events and lousy conversations led to divorce , having to sell the house came along soon after , it just so happened the market and the ability to get things done incredibly quickly seemed to fall into place , & finding a place to live with people I care about – there happened to be open room with a friend just as I was getting ready to leave .
I have to wonder if “the universe” helping me see what I needed to see, aided my journey out during I time when I could barely think , get out of bed , and not cry with grief all the time.
Now I see timing that can bring joy as I learn to make new choices , and even when I’ve met people – I feel very careful as you were speaking about – the timing will need to be right for all involved to grow a friendship or a relationship . I hope I’ll learn to recognize the best course to take . 🙂
You will have steps forward… and steps back…we all do 🙂 That’s part of being human…. and you will recognize the best course and what feels right to you… as you continue to move forward and heal 🙂 D.