When I think back to my marriage, and ultimately… my divorce… I am always so hard on myself in regards to the mistakes I made in the relationship.
I can be so cruel to myself… so hard on my own heart… instead of accepting that I did the best that I could at that time… I gave my all… and even though it may have been flawed… I made my decisions out of love and not out of malice.
It amazes me how I am so kind to the people I care about, so forgiving… when they falter on their path… when they have made an error in judgement but still… so demanding in regards to my own limitations.
Today, though I am quick to apologize for my mistakes, I must go one step further and learn to let go of self-shame… of the guilt of a poor decision… and embrace that I am human and therefore as fallible as anyone when it comes to navigating difficult emotions and situations.
“Dear God, help me to accept where I am at today. Help me to love myself as I work to be a more spiritually sound person.”
photo courtesy of: Kevin Whitaker