Going through my divorce was one of the most painful experiences I have ever suffered.
I was so sure, caught up in the despair of the moment, that it was the biggest disaster of my life and that I would never truly recover.
But that was my fear talking.
My fear of the future… of losing my marriage, my life as I knew it… my “place” in a relationship.
I was so limited by my thinking.
I couldn’t see past the crisis to what might be there for me on the other side: a life full of joy and happiness that fit me much better than the one I currently was clinging to.
All I could focus on was my fear of more “unforeseen doom” every “worse case scenario” connected to the loss of my marriage.
But today, I live a life that my limited thinking could have never imagined.
It is a life full of love and passion.
It is a life full of trust and compassion.
It is a life where the people I now spend time with accept me for who I am and support me in all of my endeavors.
Fear and limited thinking is a way to keep me chained to a past that no longer works for me.
I must have faith that my Higher Power can see what I cannot… the unlimited possibilities of my life… and that he will lead me to a better future when I am ready to follow.
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“Dear God, help me to let go of fear and walk bravely into my future. Help me to see that with your guidance my life can be more than I ever imagined it could be.”
Daily Divorce Meditations 
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My fear of the future… of losing my marriage, my life as I knew it… my “place” in a relationship.
I couldn’t see past the crisis to what might be there for me on the other side: a life full of joy and happiness that fit me much better than the one I currently was clinging to.
All I could focus on was my fear of more “unforeseen doom” every “worse case scenario” connected to the loss of my marriage.
I really needed to read those words today. You’ve accurately described at least part of what is driving my anxiety through the roof at this very moment. Thank you.
I’m glad my words were there just when you needed them… it is so hard to “see to the other side” but I can promise you… you WILL get there and you WILL be happy again. I’m here! 🙂 D.
Thanks so much for your encouragement. There are days I truly wonder…
You will get there. 🙂
I was just speaking with a friend today about what I used to believe would happen if I got a divorce – no longer a part of something , what will happen to me , how do I move on alone. I was frozen in my thoughts and feelings.
I was able to talk myself into a bleak picture for several years before the divorce even happened.
Now I finally do see the other side.
My friend actually said to me : “can you believe what you used to think of yourself ?! And look at what you’ve discovered now to be true and real . You are becoming yourself again. The person I’ve always known.”
After tears came up I was able to look at him and agree.
None if this will ever be easy, but it’s a revelation to see that there is so much more living to do, and people to share it with!
I’ve got a long way to go to heal …
You are doing it though! 😀
Love looking back to last year…
Your words bring so much clarity now.
Later this week will be two years since the separation process and moving from my home
Not only is this the right path , but I now recognize fear as the driver for my anxiety and insecurity.
Thinking about you, Patricia… hope all is well 🙂 D.
Isn’t it amazing? How time really does move you through and brings perspective? I love hearing this… and I love knowing that you have done it… you are moving through it! 🙂 D.
now I look forward to what the future brings instead of dreading it, I had lost myself in the coda pendency of the relationship, now I am learning to have a relationship with a higher power who guides my day and my future, with a lot less fear. BE BLESSED.
Robert… I’m so glad to here it… just keep moving forward… find that spiritual place… you will get through this… D.