The day of my wedding anniversary had been difficult.
I wondered if my husband, wherever he was that day, even remembered the date.
It was hard to know that I wouldn’t be receiving flowers.
I wouldn’t be going out to dinner with him to celebrate.
It marked the end of a chapter in my life instead of a “new beginning” of another year of marriage together.
I knew that by staying home and dwelling on my disappointment, I would only fall into a deeper depression.
I decided that the best I could do would be to go out and enjoy the time on my own.
I planned my own special evening.
I had dinner with one of my close friends.
I shopped for a special book I had wanted at my favorite bookstore.
I worked out at the gym and went home to take a relaxing bath where I soaked and read my newly purchased book.
I had to let go of what would not be.
I had to find enjoyment in what I could… and accept that things had changed.
Anniversaries will be hard.
So will holidays.
Remember what joy you had, and create new joy to soothe your sorrow.
“Dear God, help me to find peace. Help me to let go of what was and fill my life with what is… let me find the small moments of joy that will soothe my weary heart.”