I have often struggled with longing for things I could not have but during my divorce… longing increased.
I longed to reconcile with my husband.
I longed to remove my past mistakes.
I longed for a perfect future.
Longing left my heart heavy… its strong, persistent yearning could not be fulfilled.
Sometimes, things would happen that would allow me for a moment to believe that maybe… just maybe… if I yearned for something long enough that my own self-will would make it happen… yet… it never did.
Longing was becoming an emotional stumbling block that was getting in the way of my day-to-day life.
It became hard to focus on my work, my friendships, my family… I was constantly consumed by my desire… my longing.
It is hard to let go of what we “long” for… but if it is stopping us from moving forward in our lives, from the work we need to do in the present, then we must find a way to let it go.
“Dear God, help me to appreciate my life today. Help me to see that to love the things I have is to truly be thankful for God’s abundance and grace.”