Some of the most difficult times in my life have revolved around making hard choices: choices that cause me deep pain in my heart.
To know that I love someone with everything I am… and to then realize that I have to let them go… despite my love is beyond disheartening.
But if I pay attention to my gut instinct, I know that it is the right thing to do. That something is off… that something is not working.
When my husband asked for a divorce, I fought to keep him close, to keep our marriage intact but… no matter what we tried, we could not mend what was broken.
The day I finally accepted that he was going to leave and that I would have to let go of what we were, was simultaneously one of the worst and best days of my life.
The worst, because it was the day that I began to mourn the loss of my husband, my marriage, and ultimately… my dream.
The best, because I felt an overwhelming sense of relief once I let go of trying to control something I had no ability to control: the end of my marriage.
Today, I still have to make hard choices, choices that I wish to God I didn’t have to make, but knowing that my life has thrived since my divorce helps me to have faith in my future.
“Dear God, help me to stand by my choice. Help me to stand with firm resolve when my emotions threaten to take over and hinder my spiritual growth.”