When my husband and I divorced, I so longed for his return… for things to be different.
The people closest to me tried to be sympathetic to my feelings, but they were unable to understand my ache for him… they were all too upset… too angry at how he had ended our marriage.
And yes… it was not the best way to end things… but I found it hard to hold any anger against him when the pain, emotion, inner turmoil I felt was focused on the fact that he had chosen to leave me and share his life with someone else.
I wasn’t angry… I was profoundly sad.
I couldn’t imagine him giving up our life together.
It took time for me to adjust to life without him.
It took time for my longing to dissipate.
It took time for me to accept that I was no longer his wife and our sole contact would be related to our children.
It wasn’t easy but today… my time with my former husband is enough.
Our shared history lives in the memories of our children, and the conversations that we still have as a family.
Today, I rarely long for my past, I have perspective and work to live in the day.
“Dear God, help me to accept change. Help me to let go with kindness.”